Friday

Well, that was weird.  I ate pretty crappy yesterday, and slept hardly at all (work intervened), and got on the scale with eyes averted, expecting bad news.  Instead, down half a pound - 146.0 this morning.  Some things are just mysterious, I guess.  Here's yesterday:

• scrambled eggs
  
• bacon
  
• tea with cream
  
• the usual supplements
  
• 3 Ghirardelli mint chocolate squares
  
• chicken and broccoli in Alfredo sauce (cream butter, cheese, garlic)
  
• salad with cranberries, walnuts, blue cheese, balsamic vinaigrette
  
• two handsful of M&Ms
  
• a handful of cashews
  
• two pieces of cheese
  

Eliminate the chocolate, and it would have been a very good day.  And my calves were fasciculating throughout the late evening, but did not cramp outright.

We also went walking last night - I did about a mile and a half.  My shoulder is a little irritated this morning - I may need to find something else to do for a while until it's fully healed.  Maybe stationary biking.

Weekend starts today.  Not sure what we have planned, other than a visit to the vet for dog shots and something for my uncle's birthday.  Weather is supposed to be inauspicious.  Probably should braise something.

Thursday

Better eating day yesterday, for the most part - but not perfect.  I'm not sure, come to think of it, what perfect would look like.  146.4 today; glad to be holding steady at that lower number this week.  Here's the day's eating:

• scrambled eggs
  
• bacon
  
• tea with cream
  
• the usual supplements
  
• cheese
  
• salad with chicken and blue cheese dressing
  
• cottage cheese
  
• meat loaf
  
• green beans
  
• broccoli with cheese sauce
  
• fudge
  
• M&Ms (1 handful)
  

That was it.  We ate dinner at Country Buffet - not a Paleo destination restaurant, certainly, but it permits a mostly-Paleo meal if done carefully, and if one looks away from seed oils and what-not.  I managed to avoid snacking during the day, and will shoot for that again today.  Had a leg-cramp at some point last night, for what that's worth.

Sleep continues somewhat dicey.  Had a fair amount of night-sweats last night, although not much during the day.  I'm sort of hoping that it's easing off again.

Chicken and broccoli with Alfredo sauce for dinner - a recipe involving meat, veg, and dairy exclusively.  Should be good!

Wednesday

Fasted until 2 pm yesterday, but was hungry and stressed, and ate jerky and one (only one) mint chocolate.  146.4 this morning, so a little improvement.  Here's the day:

• tea with cream
  
• the usual supplements
  
• beef jerky
  
• a Ghirardelli dark chocolate mint square
  
• cheese (6 pieces altogether, I think)
  
• walnuts
  
• one handful of M&Ms
  
• one handful of potato chips
  

I think that was it.  Not at all good nutrition, but Lee had a meeting at dinner time and the evening and election results stressed me out so badly I'm surprised I didn't go buy and eat a bag of cookies or something.  Have had breakfast today, and have meetings straight through until 12:30 this morning, so I will try to keep from snacking today.  When I do, I lose weight.  And I would like to go into Thanksgiving about 3 pounds down from here, give or take.

We are doing the Turkey Trot on Thanksgiving - a 4-mile run-walk thingie.  Should be fun.  Wonder if the snow will hold off?  Because if not, the Vibrams are likely to be kind of cold - and I no longer wear running shoes. Toe socks and the Sprints?  Maybe.

Tuesday

Note to self.  If I need to shop at lunchtime, I should avoid stores that sell candy.  Went to Bed Bath & Beyond for a new ironing board cover yesterday and ended up with Ghirardelli dark chocolate mint squares as well.  Ate 3.  They were very good, but unneeded.  146.8 this morning.  Here's the full picture:

• tea with cream
  
• the usual supplements
  
• scrambled eggs
  
• bacon
  
• 3 Ghirardelli dark chocolate mint squares
  
• a bag of beef jerky
  
• taco salad
  
• cheese
  
• two or 3 handsful of (dark) M&Ms
  
• a handful of cashews
  

Could have been worse; could have been better.  Today will be better - we're fasting.  My plan is to make it until dinner.  So, no shopping at lunchtime.

Monday

The weekend was good.  Fairly unstructured and calm, which we desperately needed.  146.0 this morning.

Here's yesterday, best I can recall.

• tea with cream
  
• bacon
  
• cheese
  
• M&Ms (more than I should have had - several handsful)
  
• potato chips (a small handful)
  
• chicken
  
• salad with balsamic vinaigrette, blue cheese, walnuts, and cranberries
  

That was it.  Spent much of the day sewing, which keeps me from eating.

Sleep has been going okay.  Not great, but not the worst ever, either.  Added a blanket to the bed over Saturday and it's probably too warm for me, but so be it.  Menopause has devolved into multiple daily episodes of sweating like a pig - disgusting, really.  Nothing seems to help, and my sense is that adding hormones to the mix would just delay it all.  Guess I'd rather get over it all now - but I would like now to be shorter.

Friday

Okay.  Fasted yesterday until dinner.  Slept better last night.  The dog stress issues are starting to settle down, we think, so I can stop worrying about that.  This has been a hellish week.  Massage this weekend, if I can get one scheduled.  And not much else.  Maybe some sewing.  Life has been just too bloody frenetic of late.

So here's yesterday's eating (resulting in 146.4 or .2 this morning - I cannot recall which):

• tea with cream
  
• the usual supplements
  
• cheese
  
• meatballs with spaghetti sauce with cheese
  
• salad with blue cheese dressing
  
• two handsful of M&Ms
  
• a small portion of potato chips
  
• possibly some walnuts
  

And that was it.  Back to breakfasting today, with chicken breasts of some sort for dinner.  And we'll go on from there.

Thursday

147.2 this morning.  Ate crap yesterday.  Stressed beyond belief right now, to do with dog training and the looming election.  Slept like garbage last night.  Fasting for convenience today.