October 5th

Ergh.  152.2 again this morning.  What was that other weight I could never seem to get far away from?  Something.2, as I recall.  Whatever.  Up 2 pounds from Saturday morning, which is mildly disturbing, but I do notice that weight gain from bad eating is sometimes delayed by a day or two, so maybe yesterday's gain was from Saturday dinner and today's was from Sunday lunch (by that specious logic, I should be up more than 0.4 from yesterday - Sunday was much carbier than Saturday, I think).

Anyway, I'm eating properly again (save for a very minor chocolate almond nosh last night - probably ate, oh, maybe 10 of them), so things should sort themselves out momentarily.

October 4th

As usual, the low point of the week was Saturday morning; I was up to 151.8 today after Saturday's dinner (not all that bad, although I did have an entire slice of bread - horrors!) and Sunday's lunch (La Loma - chips, corn tortillas, and green chile that almost certainly contains flour).  But you know what?  I don't think I care.  I'm where I want to be, weight-wise, and don't plan on changing my eating habits.  We will stick with our pseudo-lacto-paleo-whatever-it-is approach, because it feels natural and I, for one, feel much healthier as a result of eating this way.  And maybe I lose a few pounds more; maybe I don't.  I'll let my body figure that out.

Not that I'll stop stepping on the scale as a salute to each morning, but as long as I don't start a sustained gain, I'm good with it.

October 2nd

Really hideously bad night last night - both legs took turns cramping up - not on the calf muscle, but on the muscles running up from the outer anklebone and possibly also the shin, so there was no position available for stretching; all I could do was lay very still with the cramping muscle against the heated mattress pad.  Consequently very tired this morning.  Also very skinny - 150.2 pounds.  That's a number I'm having an awful time getting my head around.  Did my measurements this morning for body fat - 25.5%.

I did fast yesterday, sort of - had a bag of peanuts midday because I was bored - but it wasn't dietary, just because I couldn't be bothered to fix breakfast.  Probably not a good mindset.  With Lee heading out of town in November, I think I need to do some planning, so I have convenience foods available.

I have a lot of things I want to get done today, so I think I'd better go get some more calories to burn.  Time for the heavy cream...

October 1st

The calf cramps are back, darn it.  Both legs now - equal opportunity writhing, I guess.  At the same time, I'm down to 151.0 this morning, so they are at least doing the usual signaling.  I was out of bed at least twice that I recall; it may have been more.  Guess I should be grateful to be sort of sleeping through them.

Had a great dinner last night.  8 oz filet with lemon butter, roast asparagus, and a baked sweet potato - all at Ted's.  The presence of the sweet potato should have kept me from losing carb-processing water, I would have thought, so I would say that increasing carbs, at best, might have a delayed influence on the leg spasms.

On the other hand, my ankles were back to their normal degree of boniness this morning, so I definitely lost water overnight, since my feet were swollen at dinner enough to feel my arches when wearing birkies.  You know, I haven't really got to the bottom of the whole cramps thing yet, and maybe I never will.

On the other hand, I'm wearing my new size 10 jeans today...

September 30th

A few leg cramps overnight - but, for a change, in my right leg, and for another change, not severe enough to get me out of bed - I just had to point my foot another direction to get the cramping to stop.  A bit more weight off - 151.8 today.  Nice, but one would think it would settle down pretty soon.  Wish I had the faintest idea what I weighed as a high school senior, so I'd know if things were going too far.  I have no intention of becoming anorexic or even unhealthily thin.

Especially since the size M belts that I ordered to replace the size L belts that were too large, are also a bit too large already.  I'm not sending them back again; I'll go find a leather punch and add some more holes instead.  But my mind is a bit befuddled by the possibility that my waist now falls into the "Small" category.  6 months ago, I was buying things marked XL, so that's just a huge paradigm shift.

Finally tracked down some vitamin K2 last night and started taking it this morning.  From what I've read, it prompts regrowth of things like teeth and bones.  I don't really know what to expect from it, but don't at all mind having strong bones as I approach my 50s.  Or teeth, I guess - can't eat meat without teeth.  I hope its effects are obvious, because it's a bit pricey, and requires a trip to Vitamin Cottage to buy, so I'd like some justification for the effort.

September 29th

Most of the water's gone, although I feel rather puffy still, so maybe what I should say is that I'm nearly down to the weight I was on Sunday morning (152.4 this morning), with maybe more to come.  Had a massage last night, which fixed a few things but left me feeling pretty bruised, so there could be more water to shed once that settles down.

Good dinner last night - had a pork tenderloin with a reduction sauce from the drippings and some Auslese Riesling that was too sweet for Lee's taste.  Finished it with some butter and it was beyond tasty.  Along with some green beans from the garden done in the new MealSaver microwave bags with some of the pastured butter - also quite good.

My size 10 jeans arrive today.  The mind is still boggling at that number.

September 28th

Lost a chunk of the weight that was there yesterday, as expected - back to 152.8.  And fasting got whatever was bugging my stomach to stop.  I had a very minor near-cramp overnight (left leg, did you have to ask?), but was able to head it off by moving a bit - didn't have to get out of bed and stomp it off.  I am thinking that we've crested the issue on cramping and may finally be on the downhill side.  Because I've been down to just 1 potassium tablet a day for quite a while, and it definitely hasn't got worse.  So, yeah.

I'm tending to think that I'm going to settle somewhere in the low 150s, maybe the high 140s once everything sorts itself.  Which is fine.  Size 10-12ish for stuff, quite normal - and quite available in flattering clothing.  And healthy.  Despite the neck-ache I have this morning from sleeping on it funny over the weekend, I feel remarkably "bien dans ma peau", as French Women Don't Get Fat says.

This odyssey has been so amazingly easy for me - for once.  Usually, it's Lee who drops weight without effort.  But I feel so free - I don't want donuts or cookies or bread or candy; I prefer dark chocolate and cheese and meat and some veg and fresh berries.  I just don't see myself being even tempted to go back to "normal" eating, and the last time I lost substantial weight, once the Peachtree was done, I stopped with the calorie tracking and the daily workouts and all that stuff, and the pounds came back.  But there's nothing to stop, this time.

There was an article about Drew Carey in the paper over the weekend - he's apparently lost around 100 pounds in the past year, but by doing low-fat, low-calorie, ever-vigilant eating.  And what he described was just so hard!  And he says he's committed to keep doing it for the rest of his life, but that's so much energy to devote to something that should be natural, instinctive.

This is better.  I wish more people knew.