Tuesday

I slept a lot better last night - a combo of Melatonin and exhaustion, I think. And it seemed somewhat cooler than the night before. Whatever the reason, I woke abruptly some time before midnight and fell back asleep immediately, and didn't move again until after 5 am. So I feel better this morning, not caught up - I hate to think what my sleep debt must be these days - but better. 

157.6 this morning; here's yesterday:

• tea with cream
• lemon jello water
• the usual supplements
• scrambled eggs
• turkey sausage
• almonds
• pork creole (peppers, onions, tomatoes)
• rice
• fruit salad
• a small scoop of chocolate ice cream

That was it. Definitely easier to eat close to boundaries on weekdays, because I can keep the nonsense (rice, ice cream) to a single meal. 

All that said, I'm a bit discombobulated today - managed to knock over my morning cup of tea in the bathroom - all over everything. And since we're not in our own house, I don't know where stuff is, and it took forever to get cleaned up. And then Lee couldn't find his phone, which he rather needs to drive to Texas. Not a good start to the day - he did find it, though.

Low-carb pizza for dinner tonight - I volunteered to make it so as to show Mom how it works. If they like it, I'll give her the recipe and instructions.

Don't know how sleep will go tonight, but if I have to choose, I'd prefer tonight to be bad, because I have to get up at 3 am on Thursday for my flight. I think I'll repeat the Melatonin both nights - my only option at the moment.

Monday

Bad weekend. 4 trips to restaurants, all involving Mexican food. My mother, with whom we are staying right now, does not cook Paleo or Low-Carb. Lots of stress. 158.2 this morning, and not at all surprised. Which confirms my folks' scale is correct - I guess that's a good thing.

I told Lee this morning that my number one criterion for a house as of today is that it is empty, preferably offering the option to rent it until the mortgage closes. My parents have no air conditioning in their house, and all bedrooms are on the second floor. House is constructed of bricks with a tile roof, both less than light colors, and it was a hot weekend. They've put a standalone a/c thingie in our room, which helps, but which is loud as all get out - worse than most cheap motel a/c units. Lee tried using a window-fan to draw cool air in, and that helped on Saturday night (I woke up cold at 4:30 am), but not last night at all. And I seem to be resuming a cycle of hot flashes. Because life isn't nearly annoying enough.

Suffice it to say that eating was crap all weekend. I think I'm going to try to redeem myself by fasting lunches during the week; can't think what else to do, honestly.

Realized yesterday that I screwed up my flight down for househunting this coming weekend - set it for Thursday instead of Friday. So I have to take a day of vacation or pay $400 extra to change it. Guess which option I went with? Maybe it will be better going early - farther away from the holiday, since the creeps of ISIS are threatening mayhem on the 4th.

We are entirely out of the house. Friday and Saturday were fairly brutal, but the truck is full and presumably headed south, and we have a minor trailer-load in my parents' basement. I really am grateful that they have room for us and offered it up; being grateful is just a bit of an effort until I can get some sleep.

So. 3-day workweek this week, unexpectedly. Lee will leave for Texas tomorrow, driving (I really hope not in my car, but I'm betting he'll want it).

Friday

I continue to like my parents' scale - 155.8 this morning. I like it, but I'm not sure I believe it. Heaven knows we're not eating particularly well right now. Here's yesterday:

• tea with cream
• lemon jello water
• cheese
• almonds
• Skittles
• Nasty strawberry-flavored frozen yogurt with strawberries, chocolate bits, and "whipped cream topping"
• beef stew (probably with flour)
• fruit salad
• a glass of red wine
• more cheese

I think that was it. We were packing last night and I ended up with a bad case of the shakes - possibly low blood sugar from eating sugar earlier. That's where the "more cheese" came from.

Sleep marginally better, I think. We're still experimenting. The movers are here today, and the trailer is due to be picked up at 8 pm. Once that's done, there will be some cleaning and gathering of stuff, and then life should calm down briefly. It won't be back to normal, but it will calm down. I'm looking forward to that almost as much as the return to normal.

Thursday

Another crazy day yesterday. As I mentioned in my previous post, it seems like I'm in a pattern of feeling pretty crappy every other day. And, true to the pattern, I feel fine today. Anyway, we have moved out of our house - it's no longer habitable. Not everything is packed yet - but we have to have everything packed that will go into the truck by noon tomorrow, and I think we'll make it, although it may be a long night tonight.

Working from "home" tomorrow - not entirely sure where that will be. But I think it will be our house, still. Maybe. Depends on what we get delivered to my folks' house tonight - basically, I'm working wherever our  wireless modem is.

156.0 this morning, according to my parents' scale. I think I rather like their scale. Here's yesterday:

• tea with cream
• lemon jello water
• the usual supplements
• scrambled eggs
• turkey sausage
• double quarter pounder with cheese, no bun
• fries
• a glass of red wine
• a pork chop
• salad
• home-fried potatoes
• apple sauce

I think that was it. I had to eat lunch yesterday, was hoping it would make me feel better. It didn't, really. But I made it through the day, and was able to pack last night - several boxes of kitchen stuff. Didn't make goal on the Fuel Band though.

Sleep was sketchy. Different bed, different room, different temperature. Toward 4, I think I had it pretty well figured out, though. Which is when the dogs started barking. Sigh. We will survive this.

Hmmm.

Not sure what's going on with me right now. Since getting back from the cruise, I've been alternating, nearly every other day, between feeling pretty good and energetic (even with the cold), and feeling limp and foggy and "off". Today is one of the latter days. I tried eating lunch, thinking I might be hungry, and because dinner helped immensely on Monday. I'm reacting to the flour coating McDonalds' fries at the moment, but didn't get much of a bump from "#4" (double quarter pounder meal, no bun) otherwise.

I took some aspirin as well, after eating. It may have helped a little, but my overwhelming urge right now is to face-plant into something horizontal and sleep the afternoon away.

Bleah.

Wednesday

I thought I'd done this yesterday; apparently not. Yesterday I was 159.2 after a Monday that included eating 2 candy bars and a bag (the last one, thankfully) of trail mix. Stress, and a lot of it.

Today (no let up on the stress), I'm at 157.8. Which I think is reflective of reality, since I was at 157.6 on Sunday. Here's yesterday:

• tea with cream
• lemon jello water
• the usual supplements
• scrambled eggs
• turkey sausage
• almonds (probably 30-40)
• steak
• salad with vinaigrette
• 2 squares of dark chocolate with almonds
• more tea with cream

Not bad - much more like I would like to be eating all the time. Did it help with the stress? Probably not. Only finishing the move and being settled in the new house will help with that, I think. And it may take getting through that and through a job search down there before I am fully past it.

Pretty tired this morning - we worked until 9 last night on packing, and I got the dishes and glassware done. My parents are coming to help today, which I appreciate, but I wanted to make sure that I packed anything I'd be bummed about breaking, so that I would only be able to blame myself. There are still breakables to be packed, but they're things that wouldn't cause as much heartburn. It sucks to be a perfectionist like this sometimes.

Made goal on my FuelBand from all the packing. Also spent most of the evening in a clammy sweat - it's been super humid here this summer so far, and that means the swamp cooler is making the house more humid, not cooler. Annoying, for sure. Took 2 aspirin and a melatonin and crashed - a brief wakeup at midnight was my only disruption until after 5. Unfortunately, I think I need more sleep. Lots more. Very groggy this morning.

Monday

I feel like I got a night of serious sleep last night - and like it wasn't anywhere near enough. I used Benadryl, so I think it's a Benadryl hangover at the moment, but I'm just limp. Achy and tired from head to toe. I cannot focus my eyes, which is making it a touch difficult to write this, just saying.

158.8 this morning; was 157.6 yesterday but went on a potato chip bender in the afternoon that turned out to be dinner. Here's the day as I can recall it:

• tea with cream
• bacon
• prime rib
• green beans
• a bit of quiche with no crust
• caesar salad, no croutons
• a few sausage links
• the aforementioned potato chips
• a slice of cheese (like for a sandwich)
• more tea with cream

We went to brunch for Father's Day, since I'd had no mental wherewithal last week to even begin considering gifts. So that's where the real food items on the list came from. Other than brunch, we spent the day packing - and made good progress. I begin to see a faint light ahead. Which is a good thing, since the trailer thingie arrives on Thursday. Closing Friday, and we should be out of the house completely very shortly thereafter. 

I'm actually getting a little excited about this move. That's a really good thing, and kind of unexpected with the Houston destination, since it's not a place I ever thought I'd live, or want to. I have a flight down there on July 3rd (5:45 am, to boot), and our goal is to have something under contract by the time I fly back on Sunday.

We had a "hail and farewell" party on Saturday with all our near neighbors and the buyers, so that they could meet. I think it went well - and we actually ended up talking about Paleo; one of the neighborhood kids is interested in it.