Thursday

Another wretched night for sleeping; it wasn't hot flashes particularly, but I could not get or stay comfortable, even in my sleep.  So when the alarm went off, it was at once a curse and a blessing.  

I'm working from home today; no idea what that will do to my eating, but guessing nothing good.  149.2 again this morning, and darn glad to be there.  Here's yesterday:

• scrambled eggs
• bacon
• tea with cream
• the usual supplements
• peanuts (got hungry mid-day for salt)
• meat loaf, sauteed in butter with mushrooms and onions and beef stock (really good way to do leftover meatloaf!)
• green beans
• a handful of cashews (more for salt)
• walnuts
• possibly cheese

Not sure what's up with the salt cravings, but they are definitely there.  Maybe I'll make a cup of bouillon today, see if that helps any.  Had more fasciculation in my calves last night, but no cramps, except in the arch of my left foot - and it wasn't acute, just achy.

I didn't have "breakfast" this morning, but I have already had 3 pieces of cheese, so roughly equivalent.  Could be a long day.

Wednesday

Got sleep last night, thank heavens.  I woke up once, at 1:45ish, I think, was awake for maybe 10-15 minutes, and knew nothing until 4:50.  So badly needed!  149.2 this morning - that almost sounds like real weight loss.  We shall see, no doubt.  Here's yesterday:

• tea with cream
• scrambled eggs
• bacon
• the usual supplements
• an apple
• a bunch of assorted cheese cubes (probably about 4 oz)
• almond crackers
• cheese
• cashews (only 1 handful)
• walnuts (from the container, no idea)

That was it.  An interesting observation - for reasons I don't get, my calves are fasciculating this morning - no cramps last night, and yesterday wasn't exactly a carb-free day, and I'm taking quite a few more mineral supplements these days than before.  

On the menopause front - still having hot flashes.  I would guess that last night's ended up being all early or something, or that I'm either getting used enough to them to avoid waking up to fling covers around, or that they're starting to be less acute.  

Continuing to walk and climb stairs every day.  My knees are starting to feel stronger, which is a great development.

Tuesday

"To sleep, perchance to dream."  Oh, would I like to!  Not much chance last night - I'd got through a bout of hot flashes and fallen asleep at a comfortable temperature, only to hear the dog groaning.  Since she's had a few stomach issues of late, that's not a noise we can afford to ignore - as if she'd let us, anyway.  2:11 am, let the dog out and back in.  Attempted to get back to sleep (took under an hour, but probably more than half an hour).  4:11 am, woke up freezing.  Dog began groaning again - that may have been what woke me to start with.  Let her out and back in.  Tried to get back to sleep; failed.  Alarm went off at 5:30.  I am a wreck.  I feel weak, muscularly, and mildly dizzy and disoriented, although I was able to drive to work.

149.4 this morning again.  Here's yesterday:

• tea with cream
• the usual supplements (added zinc daily and B-complex on Mondays)
• almond flour crackers
• grape tomatoes
• an apple (way too sweet)
• a bunch of cheese cubes
• taco meat with pico and queso on it
• green beans
• "Mexican" rice
• roast beef
• meat loaf
• cheese

That was it last night, I believe.  Dinner was at Country Buffet, so peculiar.  And something I ate did not sit well - my stomach spent the later evening growling and bubbling.

I'm just a total mess today.  2 meetings to get through, and I think I'm putting off some things that are not due quite yet, until such time as I'm in my right mind.  Ugh.

Monday

Interesting weekend - not that we did anything particularly interesting, but that I seem possibly to be in a weight-loss state.  We shall see if it continues, but this morning, I'm at 149.4, and an evening of clam chowder (certainly roux-based) and movie popcorn only added 0.2 pounds Saturday morning, and it was gone by Sunday, with friends.  So, cool, if true.  Here's yesterday:

• bacon
• tea with cream
• the usual supplements
• cheese
• almond-flour crackers
• tortilla chips
• salad with steak in it, with blue cheese dressing
• 4 slices of dried strawberry

I wasn't much hungry, which definitely helped.  The crackers are amazing - almond flour, salt, herbs (in this case, parsley), an egg, and olive oil.  Roll 'em thin and bake.  No idea how many of them I ate, but not the whole batch, since I have a few with me today for snacks.  I was just needing something that was semi-good for me and snack-worthy - and not baby carrots.  They worked.

Skipped breakfast this morning to sleep in - won't dignify it by calling it a fast.

Friday

Up a pound and a half - not sure why.  150.2 this morning.  My digestive system was unhappy last night, and is still a bit off; maybe related.  Here's yesterday:

• bacon (about 5-6 pieces, I think)
• tea with cream
• peanuts (mid-day - was very hungry)
• hot and sour soup
• beef with broccoli
• rice (maybe 1/2 cup)
• scotch (2ish fingers; very bad drive home)
• walnuts (I thought it was 1/2 cup or so - may have been more)

So a short list, but potent, apparently.  Obviously the peanuts were a bad move, but it was snowing, so I didn't want to leave the building to get lunch, and I had $1.20 in small change, which limited my in-building options.  

Had an omelet and a few hash browns (out) for breakfast today, and will be having fish or shrimp for dinner tonight.  I think I'll make some potato salad this weekend, and maybe have it with meatloaf or grilled burgers or something.  Also salad dressings, and I need to shred the pot roast for tacos or something (original plan for last night, did not happen).

By the way, the scotch was to recover from a 2-hour commute with ice.  Yecch.

Thursday

Yesterday was a little harder than I'd expected - probably because my usual fasting pattern is to skip breakfast and lunch and eat dinner.  Skipping breakfast and dinner and eating only lunch left me with a mindset on the way home from work that food would be waiting, and having to overcome that was a bit tough.  But I made it.  148.6 this morning - don't know how much of that is "real".  Here's yesterday:

• tea with cream
• the usual supplements
• Caesar salad with shrimp in (about 5 decent-sized shrimp)
• more tea with cream

That was it.  So on top of everything else, lunch was exceedingly small.  That said, I wasn't cranky or shaky or headachy from it, so I would say I still have my blood sugar well under control.  

I did resume the iodine - and last night, after falling asleep fairly easily around 9:30ish, woke after dreaming, as if ready for morning, at 10:45.  Very strange.  And I could NOT get warm this morning - I'm still a little cold.  Probably related to menopause - everything else seems to be.  Blecch.

I am parking farther from the building and have been taking the stairs every day this week, I believe.  So far, so good, on that front, though I truly can't get 1/4 mile away to park.  It's something, though.

Wednesday

Okay, I'm officially starving.  Some days, fasting is harder than others - but at least, today, I'm only fasting until lunch - and then afterwards until tomorrow.  Offering it up, as they say.  149.6 this morning.  Yesterday was fairly light:

• tea with cream
• the usual supplements (welcome back, Iodine)
• scrambled eggs
• bacon
• chicken tortilla soup
• a few (3-4) tortilla chips
• 4 chocolate almonds

That was it.  If I'd been home, instead of at Rolfing, I'm sure I'd have eaten more - and at the moment, rather wish I had.  Oh well.  Planning on a very large salad for lunch.  Very large.  Possibly with shrimp in it, if available.

Rolfing was excellent - my back feels like a 20-year-old's this morning, although I'm a bit bruised at the top of my hips in back.  She also got some work done on my right arm, which is complicated - a lot of moving parts contributing to that shoulder pain.  Next session involves cranial and facial muscles, including the insides of my mouth and nose.  Should be interesting.